But I cannot help feeling humiliated before other people for the position I am placed in.

It is wrong, but I can't help it, I can't help it.

" "Not you it was performed that noble act of forgiveness, at which I was moved to ecstasy, and everyone else too, but He, working within your heart," said Countess Lidia Ivanovna, raising her eyes rapturously, "and so you cannot be ashamed of your act.