Do you understand? the sight of him has a physical effect on me, it makes me beside myself.

I can't, I can't live with him.

What am I to do? I have been unhappy, and used to think one couldn't be more unhappy, but the awful state of things I am going through now, I could never have conceived.

Would you believe it, that knowing he's a good man, a splendid man, that I'm not worth his little finger, still I hate him.

I hate him for his generosity.